Luck; even if it's not there

I find myself becoming quite lost in trying to stay focused on finding new things and making new connections. That's how I find myself thinking about who knows what. I've been out a lot lately while the wind is doing the same thing I am. It's cold and not as pretty outside. Time is weirdly going by. This year, summer, fall, all of it is seeming as though they didn't really happen. Too much has been going on, life can't just pass by. 

Just this year, my dad's friend and his wife came over to see our house for the first time. Remembering what his wife Flo had said right when she saw our pond, has my mind running. She had come from the Philippines, and her Asian culture would show once in a while. "Those Koi you have, their suppose to bring you and your home all good and keep you lucky." She's right. Coming from the Asian culture, comes many symbols to the Koi. It can symbolize many such as, good fortune, ambition, success, courage, and most common seen as lucky. This comes from the story of a fish that climbs a waterfall on the Yellow River, who then has to keep going to the Dragon's gate at the top of the falls. If They reach it, they should be granted to be turned into a dragon. The Brave are the ones who made the journey. The amount of bravery that takes, is amazing. 

A Chinese drawing of the lucky Koi  https://www.google.com/search?

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 Koi Represent courage, strength, and are suppose to bring luck. Where was any of that this year then? My home should be filled with joy, and courage, if only myths were true. My house has had very little luck this year, too many devastating moments. Kitty passing away, house getting broken into, and having a raccoon come and eat almost all my fish but on! That's where I think the luck got flipped around. They took two of our kois that we had since they were babies, about a few years ago. Two of our koi that we were excited to see grow, and were attached to.

Since then, reality is kicking in, which is making things easier to deal with after time. Have to stay positive about it all tho. Have to. No one else is going to make that change, so just trying to make things okay again. It's not the end of the world, even if it seems like that at the moment. Maybe, just maybe, the Koi are still giving us good vibes, trying to put the pieces back together

What my Koi would have looked like today If a raccoon hadn't gotten it. http://feng-shui.lovetoknow.com/What_Do_Koi_Fish_SymbolizeAdd caption

Being happier about anything, is better than being down about everything. That's what happens during one of my random zone outs while I sit there trying to observe what ever is left of the lifeless pond.